paradoxicality ;

2010-10-10T14:05:00.008+08:00

okay, cool.

how long has it been since i have not posted smth?

more than 5months i guess. yea.

but just in order to keep this blog alive, i gotta update now.

though, lazy to upload pics ):

&who're my faithful &loyal readers? o:

current life activities:

-eoys ended, waiting for results. just hoping i could just promote successfully without retaining.

-i gained 2kg, lucky not hitting 50kg yet. D: ALMOST. zomg. still eating so much.

-wanting to do covers &post on youtube. collabs should be also done. haa, i know i cant sing

however, it's just for my hobby i suppose. &to fulfill the requests of some of my friends. so whoever's reading this now, sooo gotta support me. when i create a NEW account ofcourse :D

-yay, i just bought an army jersey! who could've imagine, the rank, or rather, position, is COMMANDO! alright, me lame -.-

-people around me are all getting attached. i'm afraid of losing them. yes, i do. hmmm.

ah, how am i gonna summarise my 5months within this post. impossible ~_~

therefore, i shall just end it here. good enough eh? hee.

who's on my mind now.... dilys, nicole m, ellis, szemin, jelene, jonah. (RANDOMNESS. LOL.)

takecare readers. love you all lovelies.

"there are many steps to the end of life. you may find many obstacles in your way, but just get the habit of trying to hop over no matter how big or small to continue your journey."

-dawnthgreat

p/s: cause baby tonight, dj got us falling in love again~
(just a song yo.)

2010-05-10T17:34:00.010+08:00

WAHAHAHAHA! exams are finally overrrr.

yeah manscxz. i mean last friday.

ohoh! went out on saturday with jelene darling.

tanjong pagar > city square mall > plaza sing > pomo > parklane > pomo (play pool with 3 guy friends joining in) > plaza sing (watched th back up plan)

btw, i watched ip man 2 on sunday, recommended sia!

&&yall' know th damn thing was, i took th last train to serangoon mrt.

THEN it was alr 12 plus like that. then i waited twenty mins for th bus.

&stupid me, realising th last bus was like at 11.3o -.-

then cabbed home, reached at 1plus am. lol.

okokayy, picture speaks a thousand words.

i need not write anyth alr? lazy... yeah, th pics were since march 2o1o (: not long ago. hahahaha.
th photos are in th order of th dates only.
btw, i would like to thank jelene, for th much preparations for my surprise dinner! shocked die me.
&those who turned up ; koyanting, dilysloo, ngyongwei, eunicechong, tanwanxuan, amandafoo, jeleneteo, th fish&co. staff members, &ofcourse myself.

i took much effort to create this collage.
i love th itouch most though.
&duh, i still LOVE th rest.
thanks sweeties.

jie so cute.

&obviously, ending off with my zilian again. but hey, it's been a long time since i've zilian D:
takecare &byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeees!

2010-04-14T17:06:00.003+08:00

HEYO babes &dudes! :D

this is an update to show that, MY BLOG IS ALIVE. &i will keep it alive.

but.. once in awhile. i have my pics that i wanna upload, but my damnfucking video cant be uploaded ):

i'll try &try &try again!
ton on saturday! manymany PHOTOS MANSCXZ!

&! cts in 2weeks time.

god, i really wanna get out of secondary school life.

&follow all my friends that have alr graduated.

or maybe staying in nursery, kindergarden OR primary school!!!!!

gahhhhh. sucksucksuck.

will post with PICTURES after cts. (stands for common tests, in case you're too old to understand. smiles-)

i think my blog's th best &damn interesting lo! HAHA, cause which blogs arent nice without pictures?

BLEH :p

bye &takecareeeeeeeeeees~

retarded me. o:

p/s:
lesbians, gays, bisexuals, straight.

2010-02-26T15:42:00.004+08:00

heyo readers!
it had been a NONGNONG time since i have blogged. so sad right ):
i know you miss me, cause i do too! HUR.
yupp, th above pic is my MOST fav valentines day gift.
lazy to take th others, cause it's mostly chocos &sweets &i've eaten alllllll~
you know you know! this month of february had been so busy laaa.
common tests started from 1o feb to 23 feb.
chinese new year chu yi to chu shi wu, 14 feb to 28 feb.
valentines day 14 feb.
my birthday 22 feb.
everyth clashes ;
sian, paranoid &stress!
but who cares, &oh! i keep ponting my cca! yet, i dunwan my cca points to be anulled.
okay, i randomly said that cause my cher just came to me &said ' whenever you never go for cca, th amount of detentions you'll get for not going.' i totally ignored her alright.
okay, am i typing alot?
yes, i am.
th pic below is when i went out with my 2 new lovely babes to a restaurant :D
going out with MANY groups of people tmr which is on 27feb till latelate to celebrate my belated birthday!
will put up pics of my birthday presents on th next post by next week. (cause i'm trying to make it into a collage!)
i wish i could hear this on 987 saying it by muttons to midnight : this song, you &me by lifehouse is dedicated to dawnthgreat !
yawns, i shall end it here.
to be continued... (:

takecare &byees.

2010-01-20T19:38:00.004+08:00

hellohello! this is dawnthgreeeeeeeeeeeeatest! :D
aw, i'm so shy, i'll have to cover my face with a twist!

an introduction of me, my name is dawn, &i am meeeeeeee.
okay, yeah, i'm damn bored -.-
up till now, still lazy to upload all th pictures la.
dun ask why are my blogsongs in korean out of a sudden.

all of th songs are sang by my fucking most favourite one &only one korean band. :p

th new year eve night at 313, somerset with darling
ton at orchad then her house :D

sucksucksuck, everyth just suck.
with friends families school probs as usual o:
&schedules kinda busy~
sorry to people that i have to neglect, not that i want to ):

ah, i am reallyreally lazy. sorry readers.
end of introduction!
nah, my zilian on th night of christmas eve before going out:

byees &takecareeeeeeeeeeee lovelies :3

p/s:
seriously, wtf is love -.-

2010-01-06T18:32:00.004+08:00

this post is specially for those babes &dudes who keep asking me to update~

HAPPY NEW YEAR! it's 2o1o !!
yeah, i know i'm like, really lame to type that right now.
cause it's oh-so-belated.
ohwells, many people also asked, what's my new year resolution?
my answer is: pursue &forget. (dun bother asking what is it, :p)
as usual, lots of stuffs happened in my life. it's interesting, yet irritating. LOL.
this year seemed to suck for me, like seriously. stressed** for some reasons.
on christmas eve, i went to ton at clarke quay (:
on new year eve, i went out with my darling girlf starting from 7pm.
watched th fourth kind @ cineleisure >>> dinner @ kovan, xinwang >>> countdown &spray &drink @ cineleisure AGAIN with 1o over people >>> darling girlf's house :D
HAHA. pictures will be posted up in next post i hope?
lazy really is a problem huh.
my genting trip in december was kinda farn too, heh.

it's so me to end off with a pic.
in th bus from genting to singapore (:

byees &takecare fellas

p/s:
what is smth more than admiration?

2009-11-21T22:34:00.003+08:00

if one person is too ugly, what will th world think of him/her?
&how will she/he himself/herself feel?
that's random of me. this post is just to keep my blog going, once again.
pictures of my recent days will be uploaded in th next post hopefully.
&sorry girlfs, that i deleted th cutest babes column away D:

;lost

p/s:
what are you thinking?

2009-11-20T10:24:00.005+08:00

WHOO! COME ON BABY!
CELEBRATE WITH ME PEOPLE!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAH.
FINALLYFINALLY. MY BLOGSHOP IS DONE!
PLEASE VISIT SHOPTISFIED.BS.COM OR IF YOU'RE LAZY TO TYPE OUT, CLICK ON TH LINKS FROM MY LINKS THER. LOL.
ALTHOUGH MY BLOGSHOP HAS REALLY LIL STUFFS, JUST SUPPORT LA HUH ._.
recently many stuffs happened in my life la.
yet anyway, i got a fucking chio &cute wifey &a aiai! k, seriously they are bloody cute :3
dun touch them, all you will die *inserts an evil looking face*
i lazy to type alr la.
....
i shall update another time. this is just to.. wake my blog up :D
ohyes! i quit my job alr! Ahahah!
BYE &TAKECARE MY LOVELY HUMANS.
ending off with this oh-so-sweet picture.. (with me wearing a geeky specs!)

p/s:
AH. YOU'VE CAME INTO MY BLOG!
*shy* imissyou muchmuch mans. :x

2009-11-07T13:10:00.007+08:00

first of all, i would like to thank szemin for helping me post th previous post(:
life is hell i tell you. once smth's wrong, almost everyth will be affected -.-
everyth's linked you know. rar.
yeah, i am BUSY. really.
btw, for those kids who really wanna work, like me before i started, working is tough.
sometimes, studying is much easier.
getting into th world (workforce &people's weird attitude) out ther, is much more complicated than you think it is.
gotta socialized &more weird stuffs.
&i wanna specially thank dilys for working with me.
szemin &wanxuan for helping us buy (:
say, yays! hur.
ohoh! my cca teacher called me while i was working laaa.
asking why didnt i come for cca, &my points are anulled. D:
i'll quit it anyway. bye, guitar club..
but, i'll still play guitar definitely. :D

this is my outfit for th first day of my work. Ahah~ just being randomly retarded &lame.
1st day, chiong.
2nd day, pia.
3rd day, ahems, started to shop alil.
4th day, shopped, eat but still pia.
5th day, GONE CASE. started to slack like, ****. LOL.

k, ya. anyway, this is a picture of dilys with a 'ghost behind'.
which is me, duh. LOL. told ya, we slacked. it's on friday.

more &more pics.

haha, when i see this pic, i was like, what's with my fringe? o:
sepia mode~
actually we have many more. but lazy to upload.
by now, my daily readers should know my pattern le.
LAZY. Lol.
sorry for not updating too.

last but not least, ending of with a picture of myself (:

bye &takecare!

p/s: this is in black.
easier to see right. i am straight okay, people. -.-

you can be mad as a mad dog at the way things went;
you can swear and curse the fates;
but when it comes to the end, you have to let go.

2009-11-01T16:49:00.029+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE :D

Szemin's here and im helping dawn to upload lots and lots of photos because she's lazy ._.

Enjoy!

she says this drink makes her horny, hahaha.

OMG, i look hideous but she wants me to post this ):

This is all about food :D

her photography skills in this picture is good :D

at jelene's house :D

Han's with me on sunday! :D

she went to my house and cook this for her lunch.

Dawn says Takecare and bye! :D

2009-10-24T17:51:00.003+08:00

firstly, hi.
secondly, sorry for not updating ): i'm lazy.
thirdly, i really do have manymany photos to upload. that's th prob.
fourthly, my new blogshop will be shoptisfied.blogspot.com <<< my creation with dilys assisting but it's still under construction. dun ask why i'm not working with andrea anymore, it's because ther are a few miscommunications here &ther.
fifthly, O levels peeps. JIAYOUS!
sixthly, i'll seriously perk up my laziness &update. for those who are close to me, as you know, i'll be starting work on 2nov. haha. so can't blog often too. :x
seventhly, byees &takecare. (:
ending off with this. :3

p/s:
haha, i know ther's no such thing as th fifthly thing.
but ohwells.
hey, imissyou.
HAHA, you're not reading my blog anyway.
so it's for farn :D

2009-10-11T16:49:00.003+08:00

ahdawnnnnnn is backkkkkkk!
actually all along i am.
but i am damndamndamndamndamndamndamn lazy to update.
because ther's so many fucking pictures i wanna upload! o:
btw, realised my songs have changed? yeah, they did.
more to those not-modern-songs. well, i love it though.
please go to www.shoptillyouaresatisfied.blogspot.com &SUPPORT!
Ahahahahahah. not only do you have to visit it, please INTRODUCE, BUY &RETURN BACK FOR MORE!
bet you will not regret. (:
for th pictures that i wanna upload, another day perhaps.
hmmm, i went out almost every day.
but can never forget th day on sunday, when i went KBOX-ING with wanxuan.
&on wednesday, 7oct! is th day when i first started to do many stuffs.
with dilys &andrea :D
we went to bugis, iluma (to watch th shows rated, G, PG, NC16 &M18! unbelievable huh ;D) then to bugis shopping center then to bugis street then to changi airport!
LOL. th most farnie part is at LONG JOHN SILVER.
show all of you th videos in th next post.
&yeah, we watched th tribute to michael jackson that started at 7pm, located @ terminal 3 departure hall.
headed back home after that~
ohoh! i wanna say smth.
BYE FARHAN, &WELCOME SEZAIRI IN SINGAPORE IDOL!
ending off with this peeeekture! 8D

p/s:
misses (:

2009-09-10T15:56:00.002+08:00

maggie mee goreng with icy ovaltine crisp drink :D

congee at balestier road.
recommended by me :D
i ate it at 3am you know.
my dinnerrrr. =/

left: chicken floss with condense milk toast.
right: CHEESE fries :D

as you can see, they are ALL foooooood.
i ate them.
HA, but i'm lucky to have high metabolism &that i wun easily grow fat :D
a good way to start off a post huh.
haha, alright.
i've been going out everyday. gosh, &singapore's like so small.
getting really sian &tired alr.

ohwells. we went to orchad to walkwalk &to see th finales of lion dance competition at ngee ann city!
then at 11pm, we headed to ion.
wow. an opening high class jewellery ceremony at that point of time.
it's 'early' huh.
Lol. anyway, manymany special guests are invited.
such as, channel 8 actor, li nan xing, &models from mediacorp &moremoremore!
look at th photo above.
spot anyone familiar?
yeah, dick lee, th singapore idol judge is standing in between th black &peach guy.
hur.

eoys are starting from 24 sep to 5 oct.
yes, they are coming soon.
have to start studying man.
though i'm really lazy o:
oh btw! do you realise i have a beautiful blogskin now?
my collage of my life's sweetest addictions.
haha, must like it k, my blog readers (:
ending off with two pictures! Ahah.
meant for those who kept saying that $2 is a small amount.
Lol, someone took this photo of me yesterday at 1o plus pm.
okay, byeeees.
smiles, takecare.

nah, this is th older pic to compare. haha.

singing:
baby, you're all that i want.
when you're lying here in my arms.
lalalas~ (:

p/s:
i'm sorry, in anyway.
i'm really contradicting.
i dunno why.
but i just am.

2009-09-01T00:32:00.010+08:00

firstly, i'll start off with a SMILEY magnet :D !

secondly......

FARHANNNNNNNNNNNNN! ohmyohmy.
my bloody fucking cute singapore idol.
he sings damn well too.
love him!

yeah, it's been a long time since i've last blogged.
supposedly to post more pictures, but ended up with these few.
blogger is seriously screwed up.
can't use my desktop at all. only this lappie. heh.
shall try to keep this post short &sweet.
manymany stuffs to share about! ;D

friday.

went out with wanxuan after school.
oral was fine i hope.
rushed after oral.
went to orchad cineleisure to watch GI JOE!
had two complimentary tickets.
after that, we went to kbox.
my fav man.
took 2videos.
will show 'yall another time =/

saturday afternoon.

went out with dilys babe to plaza singgg.
watched th show proposal.
hmmm, not bad.
recommended.
ther are nudity k.
Lol. :x

saturday night.

went to aranda chalet for cous birthday!
Ahaha~
happy birthday :D
ohwells. i made new friends ther.
friendly peeps you see.
last minute stayed over decision.
didnt sleep a wink th WHOLE day.
thanks to th monster.
LOL.
watched NC16 year one.
(rather lame show. many times words like ~~penis &testicles~~ are mentioned.)
gah, people say i look like 18 D<

thanks alot to those who made me really happy then.
had a great 'day'.
Ahah. takecare, loves.

sunday.

checked out.
went to expo with family for NATAS.
looked around for travelling agency then went to makan at
asian food expo.
FOOD yeah.

todayy.

teacher's day celebration.
not a very bad dayy.
went to primary school after dismissal.
&headed to wanx's house with dilys.
followed by my house with both of them.

done blogging. yays, smiles.

2009-08-15T14:00:00.005+08:00

i'm here to blog again~
nothing really much to say.
but life just aint th best thing for me.
thanks jolene, dilys, gay (though you might not know what happen, you're still my sunshineee that i need.)for being ther.
&those who tried to help.
smiles.
i'm kinda really tired though.
mediacorp says, jiayous! :D
&i will. last paper on mon. &that's it!
omnia i9oo, my source of motivation, must wait for me k, i'll be working hard for you!
alright, that's enough.
my first time talking emo in my blog. Ahahahah, heck care this post. :x
ending off with these pictures.

dilys &me. edited by her. ♥ !

an unglam taken by wanxuan. (though i posed. but hey, didnt really prepare yet k. o:)
$$.

p/s: it's been a long time.
私はあなたと愛を逃す. ):
censored~ that's why it's in jap.

2009-08-09T13:50:00.005+08:00

HELLOS!
i'm finally here to update!
for those people who repeatedly asked me to.
sorry. my blogger screwed up -'-
look at my fonts, ew.
i can't even post a picture or video.
aw.
anyway, HAPPY 44TH BIRTHDAY SINGAPOREEEE!
i'm proud to be a singaporean k. haha, lovesloves.
something terrible &incredible happened to me on fri, 6 aug.
damn paiseh la, &i doubt alot of people will experience it. D:
common tests are cominggggg next tues, 11 aug. trying hard to pia.
but just can't seemed to. rar, so i must motivate myself to do so.
&&i'll try to plurkkkk (: so take a look at my purk ah.
give me a tag if you want too, i'll reply.
that's all.
signing off..
takecare &i'll miss you peeps.

2009-07-22T21:51:00.009+08:00

hope you like this dawn :x

well, hi people. this is szemin. im helping dawn to post as she is lazy. haha. anyway, she came my house and did my blogskin for me. thanks to her once again :D her skills are damn good. hmmm, really dont know wad should i post. okay, i'll end here. takecare peeps! :D

2009-07-15T15:30:00.019+08:00

yesterday, had pastamania for dinner!
in case anyone of you drool, i do not have free tissues.
therefor, no pictures :D

yuppyupp.
this is a birthday cake :D

just so happen that all my close friends' birthday falls on this month, july.
they are; jelene, my darling &my gay partner.
&my past time close friends, jlsg &natalie.
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
1...
2...
3...

happy birthday, to you.
happy birthday to you.
happy birthday, to jelene, gay, liu, nat.
happy birthday tooooooo youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.
hugs, smiles.
watch this. (:

had manymany mistakes cause i was so anxious.
but hope you dun mind &you're happy with it my dears!
cause it takes alot of courage to post this kinda thing k.
so paiseh la! :x but for th sake of 4 of you.
why not? heh.
jelene, i was so afraid you wouldn't like what i gave you.
but it's th opposite! thanks for liking it. ^^
gay partner! for you, you better love it.
cause it took away my creativity braincells &money hor.
LOL.
jlsg &natalie, wait &you'll get it. (:

their birthdates:

jelene, 15 july 95
gay partner, 16 july 93
natalie, 18 july 92
jlsg, 29 july 91

other than jelene, a very happy birthday in advance to th rest. :D
takecare yeah.
iloveyouall.

last but not least AGAIN,

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hey, th one who teaches me drum, please get well hor.
after th 7days of getting quarantined, better takecare &watch out alr. (:

p/s: can you pleaseplease open out to me?
i'm begging you, stop hurting yourself.
it breaks my heart.
alot.
i mean it.
sighs.
as tare mylie.

2009-07-13T16:53:00.010+08:00

alright, i think these pictures &videos you're see-ing now,
tells th whole story.
i'm indeed lazy to type. o:

today.
Ahahahah, i took a video of our class.
yeah, we're th notorious class.
so what?
but still, we are united ;D
&, we're in express.

hear those words carefully.
it is, seriously hilarious.
LOL. th chinese relief teacher, had sorethroat at th end of th lesson.
come to think of it, we're kinda, evil huh. D:

yesterday.

eaten salted egg crab for dinner!
wah. i love it soooooooooooooooo much mansczxzxzxz.

saturday.
whole day i was at vivo.
spent th day with different friends in th night &day. (:

afternoon.
free ice age 3 DAWN of th dinosaurs ticket, free buffet. shiok!

whoo, GV MAX oh.
haha, it's FREE.
am so lucky right.

food i took. (:

buffet area.

aw man.
th baby elephant is cute :3

night.

k, szemin.
LOOK!
CHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEESE. :D

dessert.

had a starter too.
soup of th day, mushroom soup.
but didnt take any pictures of it. :x

alright, that's all for today.
phew.
that's really loooooong.

look into my eyes. o.o

byeeeees &tc.

p/s:
ti amo.
imy hell lots. ):
how?

2009-07-12T20:24:00.005+08:00

say, yays! we can start posting pictures easily.

but ah, am just soso lazy to upload pictures.
another day when i blog again perhaps.
yesterday, went out with wanxuan (:
had free buffet lunch, &watched ice age 3 in GV max.
shiokshiok, seriously.
but almost dozed off cause i didnt really slept th day before then.
at night? went to eat at a restaurant. smiles.
hmmm, kinda bored now though.

school's reallyreally getting stress cause eoys are coming.
aw. buey tahan. wish i could just fly to th clouds. &float with stress freeee.
&&i heard that h1n1 is just treated as a common flu now?
hurrr.
wonders what are people thinking these days. o.o
alright, i'm done updating my blog.

saying an early goodnights to those who are gonna sleep soon.
hugs. takecare.

p/s:
do you know how much i miss you so?
t'estimo. ♥

2009-07-08T15:25:00.006+08:00

pictures cant be uploaded in blogger anymore -.-
i uploaded this picture into photobucket, then took th html code.
mafan oh.
yesterday, i saw chen han wei acting just behind behind my house!
Ahahahah, th channel 8 actorrr.
with cameras &director.
his stomach is like so dua jia la.
i think he stuffed pillow underneathe his shirt?
LOL, so cooooool.
&he was like carrying a green 'market bag' on his arms.
trying to act sissy i think?
watch out for his new drama show coming up!
HAHA. th picture ain't very clear though.

i shall end off with this (:
aw, isn't it sweet?

takecares.

p/s: i seriously dunno what's going on in your mind.
are you able to share it with me? please?
je t'aime.

2009-07-07T17:49:00.011+08:00

dilys! i AM updating!~ Ahahahahah.
okay, i totally dunno what's going on with blogger.
WHY CAN'T I UPLOAD PICTURES!!
so lei cheh. o:
is totally not interesting without pictures ):
anywayanyway, sunday was great.
ate KFC AM!!
BUT, i kana shoot till damn jialat laaa.
wahbiang.
complaincomplain~
heh.
watched transformers.
nice show, yet th sound system is irritating me.
too many shooting effects le :x
sat in th theater for more than 149mins.
backache!
bye &takecare people. (:

p/s: 愛しています

2009-07-02T19:13:00.005+08:00

blogger's dying on me.
can't upload files.
ohwells.

if only i'm th one.
rip (:
takecare, i'll miss you.

2009-06-29T20:11:00.005+08:00

feeling very tired &stress. o:

alrighties, i'm like rushing for timeee. but i'm still updating!
went out with szemin yesterday. as usual (:
sprained my leg ): it hurts la. but went to tui na just now.
for more info on our outing yesterday,
go to http://www.secrethide-out.blogspot.com/
h1n1 cases are increasinggg...
have to really takecare of yourselves ya people? (:
byeees.

2009-06-23T16:18:00.009+08:00

hellooooooooooooooooos. okay, i'm damn extremely lethargic now ):
it's like, i totally cant sleep okay. tossing around my bed for so many hours.
now my eyelids are heavy..
aw man.

anyway, yesterday yesterday night, i went drinking againnnnnn.
ohwells, i just love drinking alcoholic stuffs, you see.
yes, i admit i am underage.
but i like it o:

but someone's worse than me!
always indulging in alcohol. -.-
stop it tell you. not good for your health.
heh, a here's a nanny nagging.. lalalas~

yeah, th picture of th beer.
i prefer wine than beer though.

uh huh!!!!!
that's KFC AM!!!!!
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
okokayy, seriously.
i've been wanting to eat this since th day they started advertising this.
but i just dun have th chance too!
why?
because i just cant wake up before 11am!!!!
it's just so darn early.
haiyo, very sian right?
anyone out ther. can help me buy or order delivery for me? D:
i just want th original twister meal.
it just seems so tasty!
tomatoes, chicken, EGG... ALL my favourite ingredients!!
Ah, ohmymama.

warning, dun read it.
cause i'm just being complainsive. rar.
however, no worries. cause ther's no vulgar (:

alright, mommy.
i know you aren't gonna read this.
cause you dun even know my blog's url.
but can you pleaseplease be more reasonable?
i just hate th way you are.
ordering people to do stuffs (that's fine)
but, scolding me for no reason, i think that is stupid okay.
--stupid--
your're stress due to your work?
come back home &relax la. dun waste your energy by screaming for nothing leis.
weather hot, it's also my problem?
everything's my fault to you right.
sometimes i really wish to runaway from home.
do you think i have this courage to?
i always have this thing inside asking myself, am i really your daughter?
Ah, buey tahan alr can -.-

alright, ending th post with this.
smiles.

byeeeeeeees, takecare.

2009-06-19T17:29:00.007+08:00

stop procrastinating &proceed with what you ought to do. (:

whoo, i totally agree with that man.

my lovedloved sweet &sour tofu ♥.
from soup restaurant. went to eat that for dinner two days back ;D

okay, this is my very own unique banana split dessert. :3

1st layer from th bottom: fresh sweet tasty banana.
2nd layer: chocolate ice cream mixed with mocha chocolate chips.
3rd layer: again, fresh sweet tasty banana :D
p/s: th banana is sweet smelling as well!

it taste really good alright.

this is my sister &my daddy. (:
he wants me to take a picture of him.
&i did!

okay, listen to th words in english carefully...
ignore all th hokkien &teochew background.

daddy: this is a piece of gold..
me: why are you playing with th gold?! *giggles*

well, last night was my ahma's birthday.
went to a restaurant for a dinner.
drank wine too. shiokshiok.
cause th alcohol content was quite high.

pizza! yumyum..

you see you see! szemin!
th cheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeese is freaking nice i tell you.
seriously plus chop.
dun jealous ah :p

alright, i shall end off this post with a picture!

this my my darling, vanessa toh szemin.
just call her szemin will do.
she's been with me for 1 full year le :D
happy anniversary! 18o6o8.
though it's only 1year, but it seems really long.
we've been through ALOT together alr.
you know? we're not even from th same school.
therefor it's rare. it is.
iloveloveyou hell lot.
remember, i'll always be here for you anytime you need me. 24/7.
just give me a call or text me.
takecare babe, muacks ♥ ♥ ♥

yupp, that's all.
bye &takecare peeps. :D

2009-06-13T15:27:00.005+08:00

(ilove spongebob squarepants :3)

goodmorning! hahah. ohmymama, i'm loving facebook now.
okay, nothing to post.
went out with szemin yesterday, farn :D
watched ghost of th girlfriends past.
anyway, shows watched:
1. uninvited.
2. angels &demons.
3. monters vs aliens.
4. night at th museum 2.
5. ghost of th girlfriends past.
6. tomorrow, i'll be watching drag me to hell! woohoo.
alright.
szemin! th tag that you tagged me in your blog right, i transfer to facebook le. HAHA. :x
done, blogging. byeeeeees. (:
takecare.

2009-06-11T17:00:00.010+08:00

oh wells. goodmorning view-ers :D
okokayy, i am seriously purely lazy la huh.
it's because i have really manymany things to say le mah. but in th end, i decided not to post all. :x
that's why i'm lazy to type. hmmm.
uh huh. yesterday, i went to escape theme park with wanxuan :3
yeah, had farn. after we played alil while, we went to ehub!
watched night at th museum 2. not bad la. Lol.
then went back to escape theme park again.
okay, this is th video of wet &wild.
p/s: please tilt your head alil to your left (:

honestly, even i can't figure out what i screamed. -.-
it sounded like... 'cockroach!' though.. hahah.

okay, th day before, i went out to bishan with my darling, szemin!
ohman, she is like so fucking cute laaa!

she's eating chicken nuggets :3

one night, dawn decided to cook spagetti.
her very own unique spagetti.
also her very first time cooking, &it's a pasta.
a big challenge for her huh?
okokayy, th pictures shows th process of her dinner.

carbonara sauce. chicken stock.

linguinie boiling in process :D

her unsuccessful chopping of sausage -.-
&it turned out like that.

but well, it turned out fine.

okay, that's dawnthgreat. eh no. dawnthretard. HA.

everything's cooked.

dished out.

sprinkle ali bits of bacons.
&DONE!

hey, dawn did cooked quite well alright.
it's edible.
applause please. (:

yeah, i enjoyed my dinner.
shared with people. hahah, fullfull.

well, this is another long post.
tata, lil fellas.
takecare 8D

p/s: it's cool to be cool.
but it's never cool to find daiji with th innocents.
understand? (:

2009-06-02T15:03:00.005+08:00

uh huh uh huh. went to school this early morning... zzz. 6am lehh!
some kinda maths &science funtasia? hurrr.
well, kana caught for many stuffs. suey right ): even during holidays-school-time. aw man.
but well, ther's a refreshment in th middle of all th 'games'. hahah.

yesyes, my dear partner, jolene. needless to say, she doesnt like bread's skin? so she just ate th white part. LOL.

disgusting. ew.

oh! &&, lets talk about my farnie act cool aunite rachel.

okokayy, th thing is:
in one plastic 'bag', ther's th egg &tuna bread.
jolene LOVES to eat th tuna one?
thus, each plastic bags only contain one egg bread. cause all th other bread is eaten up by her.
&here comes th cher looking at those breads on th table..
"GIRLS. NO WASTING OF BREADS. FINISHED IT ALL."
=====rachel comes to th rescue!!!!!=====
she puts th egg bread, into th other plastic bag of egg bread. which also means that one plastic bag got 2 bread right? yes, that's th thing.
after that, jolene, rachel &me says.
"TEACHERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. THESE ARE EXTRAS FOR THOSE WHO DID NOT COME!!"

LOLLLLL. okay, this is meant to be farnie lo.
but i think it's boring somehow. HAHAH :x
forget it man, heck care that post~~~

alright, this part is no joke:
i know 2 guys that are ONLY aged 16, that went to heaven.
they are young. really young. of course, ther are reasons to what had happened.
it's sad &sorrowful. especially th ones that are close to them. definitely, they'll feel th pain &th arrow that struck their hearts.
guys, rip. (:
th main reason for this particular part of my post is that, people out ther, readers of my blog,
PLEASEPLEASE, understand what th people around you, are going through.
cherish &really treasure them.
do not wait till th last minute or th moment when you regretted what you have not done &it is not possible to do it anymore.
try to fulfill what your love ones truly want.
if you have stuffs that are bothering your heart or you're keeping it to yourself, say it out.
if it's something positive, i bet they'll be grateful &appreciative.
if it's something negative, i believe they'll understand.
people changes, i know.
you might not realise, but you change too.
yeahh, that's th moral.
learn it. :D
if you trust me, you can come to me too.
i'll be more than willing to help.
loves(:

hahah, long post for today. but anyways, takecare peeps. 8D

2009-06-01T15:01:00.003+08:00

hahahah, so long never blog le.
laziness is coming back. &yeah, holidays are here. ;D pictures that are taken last weeeeeek.

i dunno why, but i find this bottle very slim leis. cool hor. LOL, yes i admit i am suaku ><

last sunday's bbq!!!!

this is a candle... not an ordinary one but it's actually a battery one!
HAHAH/ but seriously speaking, in real life it looks damn real. cause it flickers. O.O

yes, wine glass with white wine.
it's nice to drink okay. just that it is not as smooth as whisky :x

manymany(:

fruits are healthy!
look like th hawaii thingy.

dunno who used my phone to take this, but it's a shot of everyone not knowing what is going on. i guess my cousin is th one who took it. heh.

ohyeah, back to wine again. i love it ♥

btw! i highlighted my hair red! whooo~ it rawks okay! i cut my fringe to slope also! i just love my hair ♥ ♥ ♥ manszxzxzxzxzxzxz! people say it looks nice too :3 not trying to boast, but i just love it. reeeeeeeeaaaaaalllllllyyyyyyyy. 8D
alright. i shall go admire my hair alr. :x takecare &byeeeeeeees (:
oh anyways, my ear hole at my cartilage ther, is on th verge of recovering. so yeah~

p/s:
babe, stop emo-ing le la.
hahah, anything just come to me alright? (:
hugs &loves ♥

2009-05-24T15:37:00.009+08:00

th post for today, i shall post tomorrow bahh. if not, you'll die of reading! hur.

this is th post for yesterday! hahahah. went out with mom &dad. nothing to do in th car. yes, i'm always bored.

then, we walked into watsons. mom, looking for some stuffs.

dad: hey dawn. come over here! look at this!
me: *stares* at th anti-wrinkle-cream. price tag 112$. crazy ah, so ex.
dad: but it works la.
me: how would you know. daddy, you're just living in self denial that you're old. but, dun worry (pats dad's shoulder) you're young at heart. (:
dad: number 11, ni hen duo fei hua lehh.
me: BOO.

LOL, yes, i was laughing like hell. though it might not be farnie to you. at that point of time i was wearing my jersey shirt that has a number 11 &above it was my name, DAWN :D
lalalalas~

okay, this is th post for friday. hahahah, saw this palm size moth in 2.7's class. so disgusting la. ew.

anyway, yeah, at night, natalie &i went out. whooo~ love th outing. went to watch th uninvited at 9pm &it ended at 11plus. damn scaryy la. but, it's recommended show. &then, reached home after midnight. :D

th post for thursday! hahahah, at night, my cousin &i went to KBOX. since it's ladies' night, i paid ONLY 1obucks &was able to be ther till 3am! hahahahah. damn shiok la i tell you. still got extra glass of ladies drink? LOL.

my cousin &i dabao chicken rice for our dinner. wheee~ hid it using th bag to cover it. so that no one sees it? hur.

yeah, th drink with th cherry one is th ladies' drink. taste good. (:

meee. &only me!

drinking!

ohmy! kor, why you take unglam photo of me sia? D<

HAHAH. now my turn to take yours.

come on baby, let's singgggg~ i'm kbox queen okay! :p

eee, i look like ghost.

hahahah. i love singing. yes, i do.

p/s:
baby, if only you knew,
i guess, you really alr have a place in my heart.
我爱你.

2009-05-18T22:40:00.004+08:00

hellos! good day to you mdm/sir :D all i can say is, I SO SO SO SO SO SO SO DAMN DAMN DAMN EXTREMELY EXTREMELY EXTREMELY FUCKING FUCKING FUCKING LOVE LOVE LOVE BASKETBALL x33333333

ball.. O.O

into th net. TYCO! booo...

hahahah, this is a repeated picture.

that's all for my posts. 8D

takecare babes/shuaiges (:

2009-05-17T19:37:00.006+08:00

STEP ONE:
Spell your name with songs
; Damaged
Always be my baby
What u've got
Never be replaced

STEP TWO:
Name: dawn(:
Birth date: 22o295

Nickname: dawndawn, ahdawn. &manymany more.
Eye Color: brown.
Hair Color: brown.
Zodiac Sign: pices (okay, i dunno how you spell that. but it is th 2 fishes thingy. Lol.)

STEP THREE:
The shoes you wore today
; slippers :D
Your weaknesses; alot, i guess.
Your fear(s)

; ghost, th sound of a motorbike, insects &more. :x (shhhh. dun tell anyone)
Your perfect pizza

; adding moremoremoremoremore &more cheeeeese! 8D

STEP FOUR:
Your best physical feature?
; crazy.Your bedtime?
; after midnight.

STEP FIVE:
This Or That…
; Pepsi or Coke?
coke. :D
McDonald’s or Burger King
; macs.
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea
; nehh.
Chocolate or Vanilla;
chocolate.
Cappuccino or Coffee
; both! hahah.

STEP SIX:
Do You…
; Smoke?
i'm a guai kia leh. what do you expect?
Sing?
; duh.
Dance?
; rarely.
Take a shower everyday?
; obviously.
Have a crush
; yeah.
Do you think you’ve been in love?
; yeah.
Want to go to college
; i wanna be smart okay.
Like(d) sec school
; no. hate it. sucks.
Want to get married
; no. i wanna be a bachelorette. LOL.
Get motion sickness
; no.
Think you're a health freak
; no.
Get along with your parents
; no.

STEP SEVEN:
In the past month…
Gone to the mall
; yeah.
Eaten the entire box of Oreo?
; crazy.
Eaten Sushi
; yes.
Been on stage
; yeah.
Gone skating
; nopp..
Made homemade cookies
; nopp.
Gone Skinny dipping
; ?
Stolen anything
; guai kia here. (:

STEP EIGHT:
Ever…Played a game that required removal of clothing?
; crazy.
If so, was it mixed company?
; no.
Flashed anyone?
; no. only th green man flashes. (:
Been beaten up?
; i'm fine.
Shoplifted
; guai kia!

STEP NINE:
Age you hope to be married
; dunwan.
Numbers of Children
; zero. pain la. LOL.
Describe your Dream Wedding
; dunno. whitewhite de. meaning... NOTHING. :D
What country would you most like to visit?
; paris. hokkaido, tokyo.

STEP TEN:
In the opposite sex..
Best eye color?
; brown.
Best hair color?
; brown with highlights 8D
Short hair or long hair?
; depends.
Height
; 175 to 18o cm. hahahah.

STEP ELEVEN:
Number of people I could trust
; bo leis.
Number of CDs that I own
; countless.
Number of tattoos
; guai kia laaaaaaaaaaa! D<
Do you swear when you’re mad?
; idk. CRYING SECTION
When was the last time you actually cried?
; everyday.
Ever cried yourself to sleep?
; yupp.
Do certain songs make you cry?
; yes. tune &lyrics saddening mah.
What usually makes you cry?
; things that make me cry la. HAPPY SECTION
Are you usually a happy person?
; act lo. but yes la.
What makes you the happiest?
; when i get what i want.
Do you believe in yourself?
; trying.
When people say they think you are good looking/pretty, do you get happy?
; no. they might just be talking crap.

finally i'm done man. ohmy. yes. this is th first VERY first time i'm doing this kinda quiz. haha. (:

2009-05-17T13:07:00.006+08:00

hahahah. this is th post for yesterday. went out to bugis th whole day. so no time to post. went to shopshop~ though i dislike it. it makes my legs tired ): anyway, yeah. bought manymany stuffs. nahh. here is a cutecute story. it may seems long, but just waste alil part of your time doesnt harm does it? (:

Customer Service Rep: Can you install LOVE?
Customer: I can do that. I'm not very technical, but I think I am ready to install now. What do I do first?
Customer Service Rep: The first step is to open your HEART. Have you located your HEART ma'am?
Customer: Yes I have, but there are several programs running right now.Is it okay to install while they are running?
Customer Service Rep: What programs are running ma'am?
Customer: Let me see....I have PASTHURT.EXE, LOWESTEEM.EXE, GRUDGE.EXE, and RESENTMENT.COM running right now.
Customer Service Rep: No problem. LOVE will automatically erase PASTHURT.EXE from your current operating system. It may remain in your permanent memory, but it will no longer disrupt other programs. LOVE will eventually overwrite LOWESTEEM.EXE with a module of its own called HIGHESTEEM.EXE. However, you have to completely turn off GRUDGE.EXE and RESENTMENT.COM. Those programs prevent LOVE from being properly installed. Can you turn those off ma'am?
Customer: I don't know how to turn them off. Can you tell me how?
Customer Service Rep: My pleasure. Go to your Start menu and invoke FORGIVENESS.EXE. Do this as many times as necessary until GRUDGE.EXE and RESENTMENT.COM have been completely erased.
Customer: Okay, I'm done. LOVE has started installing itself automatically. Is that normal?
Customer Service Rep: Yes it is. You should receive a message that says it will reinstall for the life of your HEART. Do you see that message?
Customer: Yes I do. Is it completely installed?
Customer Service Rep: Yes, but remember that you have only the base program. You need to begin connecting to other HEARTS in order to get the upgrades.
Customer: Oops...I have an error message already. What should I do?
Customer Service Rep: What does the message say?
Customer: It says "ERROR 412 - PROGRAM NOT RUN ON INTERNAL COMPONENTS". What does that mean?
Customer Service Rep: Don't worry ma'am, that's a common problem. It means that the LOVE program is set up to run on external HEARTS but has not yet been run on your HEART. It is one of those complicated programming things, but in non-technical terms it means you have to "LOVE" your own machine before It can "LOVE"others.
Customer: So what should I do?
Customer Service Rep: Can you find the directory called "SELF-ACCEPTANCE"?
Customer: Yes, I have it.
Customer Service Rep: Excellent, you are getting good at this.
Customer: Thank you.
Customer Service Rep: You're welcome. Click on the following files and then copy them to the "MYHEART" directory: FORGIVESELF.DOC, SELFESTEEM.TXT, EALIZEWORTH.TXT, and GOODNESS.DOC. The system will overwrite any conflicting files and begin patching any faulty programming. Also, you need to delete SELFCRITIC.EXE from all directories, and then empty your recycle bin afterwards to make sure it is completely gone and never comes back.
Customer: Got it. Hey! My HEART is filling up with really neat files. SMILE.MPG is playing on my monitor right now and it shows that WARMTH.COM, PEACE.EXE, and CONTENTMENT.COM are copying themselves all over my HEART!
Customer Service Rep: Then LOVE is installed and running. You should be able to handle it from here. One more thing before I go...
Customer: Yes?
Customer Service Rep: LOVE is freeware. Be sure to give it and its various modules to everybody you meet. They will in turn share it with other people and they will return some really neat modules back to you.
Customer: I will. Thank you for your help.
.

that's th end. byeeeee.

p/s: hellos, can i put up this emo post here? :x
though i dunwan to be. but it's my bloggie. hahah.

you taught me how to be caring.
you taught me how to be kind.
you taught me how to like someone.
you showed me love.
you are always ther.
but ther's one thing that you never teach me,
&that is how to let go &move on.
this time, i'll always be here for you.
remember that. &takecare babe. (:

2009-05-15T18:04:00.010+08:00

goodmorning! though it's not morning now. but anyway, alright. let's start th LOOOONG post today with a BIG smiley face :D

didnt took real life pictures today mah. so take from th net lo? but pictures speaks a thousand words! hahahahah. oh yeah! i wanna watch th uninvited too!

booya! HAHAHAHAH. scaryy? well, i think it is for me. ohmygod. i would love to see if ghosts are real or are ther even in this world? but th prob is, i'm afraid of it! so dumb right? -.- LOL. that reminds me, i wanna create a paranormal club society!! hur. joke. like i even dare to do sutffs to see things that i might not be able to see. O.O

enters.

&ther you go. sentosa. from singapore. look at these peeeeeekttttuuuuuuures.

th scenery is so beautiful can?

i love sitting on cable cars. :D i'm not afraid of heights! hahah.

underwater world. so obvious. sharks, stingrays, fishes, tortoise. &manymany moremoremore! 8D

th musical light? oh, dunno what is it called :x

th place wher ther's loads of waterwater.

&........

th future sentosa in SINGAPORE will be........

TADAA!

ther will be a HUGE theme park! wow. i guess i'll love sentosa. why? cause ther's resorts &a THEME PARK. HAHAHAHAHAH. so cood (good+cool) can. fucking excited laaa! woots~ ;D
mamamiiiiiaaaaa. ohno, i'm going crazy. &hey, you ther. dun laugh. cause ther's nothing wrong with being crazy. okokayy, people, baozhong (:

p/s: dun ask why i'm using th same colour of font.
practically, i just love th colour :x

2009-05-14T21:53:00.004+08:00

people! please do well for midyears alright!&get good results! jiayous! :D
today, as usual. started zhu-ing during lessons... &pont cca. o.o
ohman, feel like watching angels &demons. those who have watched, please tell me how is it! lalalas~ boredboredbored.

BABOOM!

ohmy! are you dead yet?

i am SERIOUSLYSERIOUSLY sian. D:
but anyway, takecare~ (:

2009-05-13T20:38:00.006+08:00

hey my blog view-ers! omgomgomg! imissyouall :D exams finally over! blog's revived &colour changes! yays 8D okay, i'm insane. lalalalas~ but yeah. life's BORING. nothing to do! or manymanymany things i can't figure out on how to solve yet. HOW? O.O someone out ther. HELP. crazy. ah! i'm like talking to myself now -.- bo liaoooooooozxzxzxzxzxz. ehhhh, must love my blog okay. treat it with care. very fragile de! heh. cause i took 3days to revive it somehow. potion left so lil mahh. alrighties. PEOPLE, takecareeeeeee~ i'll make sure i blog almost everyday! interesting stuff laaa. if not so sian. correct? yes, right. picturespictures!
FUCKING CUTEEEE. HAHAHAHAHAHAH :x

CAREBEAR &DONUT. (my doggie :D)

penguin with a heart balloon :3

somehow th pictures aren't arrange in th correct manner =/

LOL! lO.Ok at that! cookie monster tissue! who wants?

lastly, ELMO th RED MONSTER bathing!!!!

hahahahahahah, hope you love th pictures too ;D
gosh, i am so bored. *inhales* ............... *exhales*
okokayy, my eyes are gonna pop out soon after staring at th computer for soooooo long.
*munchmunchmunches* on th dove chocolate wafer. x3 it's really REALLY great =p

2009-02-09T23:12:00.002+08:00

GUESS WHO AM I ?
I AM VIENNADIONNECHIACHYAJUAN (:
HACKED INTO DAWNDAWN ACCOUNT
:D
I SMART RIGHT ?
FIXING HER DEAD BLOG !
XD
Haha !
Okay . better get going .
Bye ! MISS ME AND I WILL MISS YOU :D

2008-11-22T15:53:00.002+08:00

2008-11-13T13:07:00.003+08:00

omf . okokayys . sorry people . i am really DAMN lazy to blog . you know why ? i have toooooooo many things to say D: ANDAND . DUN BECAUSE OF THIS ONLY CALL ME DODO , DUMB , DUMBASS , DUMBDUMB , or whatever stupid nonsense name okay ! RAWR D<

2008-10-24T18:16:00.003+08:00

for those people who have been waiting to see my posts , sorry ! i've been very lazy and busy these two weeks or more . i'm going to blog another day . D: i think next week or tomorrow . can't promise . sorry again ! :x

2008-10-07T18:15:00.008+08:00

heh , iloveyou (:

GOOD EVENING !!!! hmmm .. another reccomendation ! the show HOUSE BUNNY is a fantastic show ! wahahahahahaha . some parts you can laugh like hell , can drop your tears and can even be damn angry lah ! LOL . it is xi , nu , ai , le . for those chinese people you know bahhs ! haha . okay , let 'yall read what i type hands damn tired -.- . i edited abit lah . if this thingy might be too chim for some of you , paiseh ah =/ so here goes :

please here what i'm not saying

please dun be fooled by me . dun be fooled by the face i wear , for i wear a mask . i wear a thousand masks , masks that i'm afraid to take off and none of them are me . pretending is an art that is second nature to me , but dun be fooled , for GOD's sake , dun be fooled . i give you the impression that i'm secure and all is sunny and unruffled with me , within as well as without , that confidence is my name , coolness is my game , that water is calm and i'm in command and that i need no one , but dun believe me , please dun believe me . my surface may be smooth , but surface is a mask -- my every varying and ever concealing mask . beneath it dwells the real confusion , fear and lonliness . beneath lies my smugness , my complacently , but i hide this -- i dun want anyone to know . i panic at the though of my weakness and fear of being exposed . that is why i frantically created a mask to hide behind -- nonchalant glance that knows -- but such a glance is precisely my salvation , my only salvation i know it . that is if it's followed by acceptance . if myself , from mmy own self built prsion walls and from the barriers of what i cannot assure myself , that i;m really worth while , but i dun tell you this , i dun dare -- i'm afraid to . i'm afraid that your glance will not be followed by acceptance and love . i'm afraid you'll think less of me you'll laugh and your laugh will kill me . i'm afraid that deep down , i'm nothing and that i'm just no good and that you's see this and reject me . so i play my game ; my desperate pretending ; with facade of assurance without and a trembling child within . and so begins the parade of masks , the glittering . but empty parade of masks and my life becomes a front . i idle chatter to you in suave tones of surface talk . i tell you everyting that's really nothing and nothing of what's everything and what's crying within me . so when i'm through going through my routine , do not be fooled by what u'm saying . please listen carefully and try to hear what i'm not saying -- what i'd like to be able to say but for survival i need to say , but what i can't say . i dislike hiding , honestly , i dislike the superficial game i'm playing , the superficial phony game . i'd really like to be genunie , spontaneous and me , but you've got to help me , you've got to hold out your hand . even when it's the last thing i seem to want or need . you can help wipe away from my eyes -- the blank stare of grievng dead . you can help call me into aliveness each time you're kind gentle and encouraging . each time you try to understand because you really care , my heart begins to grow wings , very small wings , very feeble , but wings . if you choose to , please choose to . you can help break down the wall which i tremble . you can encourage me to remove my mask . you can help release me from my shadowed world of panic and uncertainty . from my lonely prison . so do not pass me by -- please dun pass me by . it will not be easy for you . a lone conviction of worthlessness builds strongs walls . the nearer you approach me , the blinder i may strike back . it;s irrational , but despite what books say about man , i am irrational , i fight against the very things that i cry out for , but i am told love is tronger than strong walls . in this lies my hope , my only hope , please help beat down those walls with firm hands but with gentle hands -- for a child is very sensitive . who am i , you may wonder ..

you see , some of you people may feel like this , sortof the same way as me . but just be optimistic , tell whatever your problems or difficulties you have to someone you can trust . just be positive and stay cheerful and happy ! :D

PART 3 . only love

"No..." I stood in shock. "NO!!!" I grabbed the paddles and continuously shocked his body. His body bounced up and down from the shocks. The scared nurses went to find another doctor, to tell him that I was crazy.I didn't know if I was crazy or not. I just wanted to save my lover. Even though we fought all the time. Even though he never showed me his love. I still wanted to save him. He still owed me a card. He couldn't die! I threw away the paddles and began to press on his heart. I pressed with all my strength, hoping it would revive him, but he didn't wake up. He didn't even say "It hurts". He just laid there with his eyes closed, punishing me with his silence.Dr. Jian angrily pushed me away. By that time, I couldn't see clearly anymore. I cried. I wailed. I bowled until no sounds could come out of my mouth."It's too late, Dr. Shu. He's already dead. I'm sorry." Dr. Jian patted me on the shoulder. They knew each other and ate together once. I introduced them."He can't die." I shook my head. "He can't die!!" I struggled to run to him."Dr. Shu, control yourself!" Dr. Jian slapped me. "I understand what you're going through, but you're a doctor."Yes, I'm a doctor, but I'm also a regular person. How can Dr. Jian understand how I feel? I've loved him for so many years that it's become a habit. How can I just throw away a habit? Besides, he still owed me a card. "I want him to live! I want him to live!" I ran to him again and tried to knock the life back into his body."Take her away!" That day, I lost my control and my professionalism.And that day happened to be Valentine's Day.Afterwards, I asked his co-workers why he left work early that day.They told me that after I hung up the phone, he tried to call me several times but couldn't reach me. Worried, he drove to the hospital to find me and got hit by a large truck on the way.When I heard this, I froze. My tantrum killed him. Just because of an unmailed card, he died. After that, I lost my privilege to be childish.Like an abandoned cat, I couldn't even cry anymore. After his death, I couldn't cry anymore, regardless of how touching the plot or how tear-jerking the dialogue. They didn't affect me anymore.Now, I'm only left with a cat and a seldomly used computer. Stepping over the cat, I turned on the computer. Even though I know no one will send me a mail, I still hoped that someone will remember me on this day.Meow, meow. I looked at Christine to see what's wrong. She finished her milk. I went into the kitchen to get her more milk then came back to look at the computer screen.I have.... 100 emails! Who would be bored enough to send me 100 junk mail?I was just about to delete them all when I received another mail, and this one said: "Because of system error, we could not send these until today.We apologize for the delay." The sender was my ISP.I looked at the 1st mail. It showed the send date is last year's Valentine's Day. My heart began to beat fast. Could he have sent these?With a trembling hand, I opened the mail. The first thing that popped up was a gorgeous red rose set against green leaves. Then a beautiful melody began to play.... "Only Love". I couldn't believe it. The rose was so beautiful and the music was so dreamy. I almost thought I was in a fantasy. Most touching of all were the words underneath the rose, because the words read like a beautiful poem."Hwei."That's my name."Knowing you so many years, I've never sent you any flowers. Today I send you a rose."I received it and it's so beautiful."You know we are always fighting. We can never really open our hearts and tell each other how we feel."Yes, but it's all your fault for being so distant."I know I always make you mad by the things I say."Good that you're admitting it."But today I want to say to you: I'm sorry, and I love you."I waited so many years for those words."And I want to tell you a good news. I finally saved enough money."You already have enough money. Why did you need so much?"So Hwei, let's get married!! I was afraid to propose to you, because I didn't trust in my ability to give you the good life you deserve. But now I've saved enough money so we don't have to wait anymore."Who wanted you to wait? I'm already yours."Today, I use this card to propose to you. Will you marry me, Hwei? Will you?"That's the content of the whole card. Like a fool, I kept reading his words and talking to him. It's like I can hear his voice and see him again.As if it's back to 1 year ago with us constantly fighting.The song played over and over. Repeating Nana's heartbreaking voice.Only love can make a memory. Only love can make a moment last. You were there and all the world was young and all it's songs unsung. and I remember you then when love was all, all you were living for,and how you gave that love to me...."The lyrics of this song fits our love so closely. When he was alive, my world was so young. Every day, I could find a something different to fight with him about. But after he left, my life is only left with memories and coldness that will never go away."Will you marry me?"When I read these words, my tears unconsciously came, wetting the keyboard.Will I? If he's in front of me, I will definitely kick him and call him a big fool. If I wasn't willing, I wouldn't have waited until today.So I moved the cursor over the "Reply" box, and typed the response that I've already prepared for so many years - "I will."I will - be by his side for the rest of my life. I will - fight with him forever. That is how I answered him, but the only response I got was the repeating song "Only Love."

Nevertheless, I opened every single letter, accepted every singled rose, and typed the same response: "I will."I replied 100 times, and "Only Love" played 100 times. In this cold Valentine's night, the line that's been broken for 1 year finally got reconnected.I answered you. What about you? ( finally the end of this story . )

2008-10-06T17:58:00.003+08:00

second post for today ! haha . hmmmm ... show 'yall the pictures of my sister and i the candid . hehe . these pictures were randomly taken before geography , EOY . which also means that is long ago ? haha . the date was on 21 september . but it was about 12plus , so it's 22 september . lOOk :

smiling ...

kisskiss ...

shit face ...

face gets bigger ...

and bigger ...

and BIGGER ...

LOL .. okayys . we're lame dun you think so ? -.- LALALAS~ let 'yall read ..

only love PART 2 :

"Why are you staring off into space??" He loved to pull on my hair. "You're so ugly when you're doing nothing. But you're also not pretty when you smile." In other words, I'm really ugly.
"You're the one who's ugly!" I pull back my hair. "If you think I'm so ugly, why do you visit me??"
"Can't help it. My home is right next to your home." He argued.
"Then I'll move!" The next day, I drew a line in the ground using some white chalk. A line that I forbid him to cross.
That year, we were both in the 5th grade. We couldn't stand each other and hoped the other would move away. But 5 years passed, and neither of us moved. Not only that, we got into the same high school and into the same class.
"You're that infamous couple." All the students and teachers in the school would say whenever they saw us.
"We're not!" I always tried to explain. "We're only neighbors." At that time, I hated my parents for making us live next to him."My standard is not that low." He would say. "Who wants her to be a girlfriend?? It's not like I don't have eyes."
"Yes, I know your eyes are on top of your head." I really disliked him. "Better than having eyes on the bottom of my head like you." He implied that I couldn't judge guys. At that time, I had a crush on a senior.
I didn't think that his sarcasm had a hidden meaning. After a while, I found out that the senior student had lots of girlfriends. When I cried about it, he silently passed me a handkerchief and awkwardly held me in his arms.
"I told you he wasn't any good." He roughly comforted me. I cried in his arms the whole night, and began to see him in a different way. Things began to change between us. We still fought all the time, but he started to look at me differently. And I blushed and my heart beat faster when he was near. We both knew: we fell in love with each other.
Even with this knowledge, neither of us said anything. Even though we wouldnot be able to resist and kissed each other constantly. Even though we cared about each other's every moves. Both of us refused to admit our love.
Time flew by quickly, and it was time to face separation. I chose to study medicine, and he chose physics. Yet we still couldn't separate from each other. Our parents worried that we didn't know anyone in Taipei, so they forced us to live in the same apartment building. Once again, we became neighbors. We still fought, but sometimes we fought into the bedroom. Alright, we became lovers, but we still wouldn't say we loved each other. We didn't even spend Valentine's Day together until he saw me share dinner with a man one Valentine's Day. That night, he waited for me in front of my door and said that he would take me out to dinner on Valentine's Day from then on. I have to say that he was very arrogant. But I nodded and accepted his request. Since then, we spent every Valentine's Day together. After graduation, I became an intern. He started a small computer company with some friends and became a programmer. We were busy with our own lives and had no time for a relationship. Three years later, I became a doctor, and his business began to boom. We separately moved to biggerapartments and stopped being neighbors. On the surface, we left each other. In reality, we were still together. We spent every Valentine's Day together but each year became more dreary than the next because he never told me he loved me even with all my hints.
Facing the empty in-box, I suddenly grew very angry. He wouldn't say it and wouldn't send me a card. What did he mean? Who did he think I was? I called his cell phone.
"Hello." He picked up the phone.
"I didn't receive the card." I immediately showed my displeasure.
"You didn't receive it?" He seemed really busy. "But I sent it."
He was really busy but I didn't care. "I didn't receive it. Send it again."
"Okay, I'll send you 100 times. Is that good enough??" He said with impatience. His tone further infuriated me. Is that how lovers speak to each other?
"Don't bother sending it to me. And you don't have to pick me up tonight.
I'll eat dinner by myself."
"Don't be childish, ok? I'm really busy."
"I AM childish!" I hung up the phone and tears rolled down my cheeks.
Childish?? Why didn't he consider the situation? We've gone out for so many years and spent countless Valentine's Day together. I never received any flowers nor cards from him. Now, I just want a little e-card. Is that too much to ask for??
I unplugged the phone from the wall and turned off my cell phone. I didn't want to hear his explanations. After I returned to the hospital, I instructed the receptionist not to forward me any phone calls. I wanted to concentrate on work.
Because there were so many emergencies today, I was sweating 1 hour later and forgot about our argument.
"Dr. Shu, please take a look at that patient."
As I was collecting my equipment, the shrill sound of an ambulance sounded outside the ER. When I stepped out the door, the emergency medics hurriedly wheeled in a gurney.
"What happened to him?" I asked the 1st medic. Everyone else were trying to help put the patient on the gurney. He was covered with blood.

"Car accident." The medic replied. "Very serious. He may die."
I nodded and ran to the operating room with them. When I arrived, the nurses told me that the man had already stopped breathing and also his heartbeat also stopped
"Prepare for shock." I calmly instructed the nurses. Saving people is our duty. We can't lose our calm.
But when I saw who laid on the operating table, I lost my calm. That person was my boyfriend!

2008-10-06T17:05:00.004+08:00

yo people ! wahahahahaha . i came back like after midnight yesterday ? hmmmm .. after my family and i watched painted skin , we went mac donalds to slack and laze around . ha . well .. painted skin is a okok show bahhs . next sunday if i'm not wrong , i will be watching the show connected . haha . erm , if anyone of you wanna watch movie , i can sortof reccomend the okok shows to you . LOL . the movies are eagle eye and painted skin . but the show eagle eye hor , very complicated de . therefore , some people might not really understand . heh .

ta daa ! this is what i wore yesterday night . damn cool can . aiyah you see me in real life then shock die you sia . LOL . then all the guys started staring at me . you know why ? i can bet you that they are too jealous because i'm more shuai than them . HAHAHAHAHA . ( eh , anybody that is not shuang with this post dun anyhow spam my tagbox ah . can just keep mum or tell me directly (: no need to hide de . thankyou :D ) during the movies , there is like no kids at my age in sight lah ! hoho . i bet every student must be preparing to go school the next day . ha ! but too bad , ah dawn no school xD dun jealous ah . because we have some stupid projects to do . heh .

okokayys , after the movie and everything , i told 'yall i went to slack at mac donalds mah . can you spot me in the reflection there ? haha .

OKAY ! here it is !!!! oreo cheese cake ! damn nice and cool right ? see the design on the smallsmall plate ? =/ hohohohohohohoho . it is irresistable and delicious man ! dun drip your saliva infront of your monitor ah . clean up for yourself O: haha . oh yah ! andand , there is a new wasabi shaker fries ah ? haha . sweetsweet de . dun really have wasabi taste mah -.-

left hand , is ahjie's one . farnie lah . her hand so big and mine is so small == i must like stretch my fingers then she had to shrink . LOL >< a big heart :D

okayys , this photo is just taken just now ? hahahahahahahaha . mango cake ! nice right ? dun be too greedy ah . heh . wanna eat right ? go buy it yourself , i wun treat you =p cause this kinda cake one slice nia exex le . O.O anyways , just to tell you , i will be having two posts for today . i know i'm mad lah huh . read die you ah . heh . xD

2008-10-05T16:50:00.003+08:00

GOOD MORNING ! okayys -.- now is not morning , haha . i'm going to watch the movie 'PAINTED SKIN' at 9pm later ! wahahahahaha . hmmmm , now damn sian lo . ant this stupid blog making me so fed up == rawr D: PLUS , look at the big picture of me on the left hand side . i look damn guai cans ? LOL xD come on man . i'm always guai . heh >< color="#ff0000" size="5">HAHA =/

this story is called only love . it is sortof link to the song only love . haha .

PART 1 . here goes :
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It's a cold February night. People are bustling through the streets, either pulling up their coat collars or wrapping scarves around their necks, trying to stay warm.
It's so cold today.I'm standing at my window, looking at the people moving like little dots. Standing in a heated room, I'm beginning to pity those people. Why don't they go home? Do they plan on wandering until morning?
"Almost time to go home! My boyfriend must be going crazy." One of the nurses breathe a sign of relief. "Still needs to work overtime on Valentine's Day. It's so unfair!"
"You are fortunate." Another nurse says. "Some people don't have anyone waiting for them."
"You mean Dr. Shu?"Like Sherlock Holmes, my ears perk up when I hear my name."Do you remember how she lost control on this day last year?""Of course I do." A nurse shudders. "I've never seen Dr. Shu like that. Crying and yelling, like she was crazy."They are talking about how I was last year. They are correct. I was out of control, like they said."You can't blame Dr. Shu. If my boyfriend died in front of my eyes, I would probably go crazy as well.""Keep it down. She hasn't left work yet. She might hear you." The two nurses are too late. I heard the entire conversation through the canvas wall."Dr. Shu, what are you doing standing here?"
Just as I was deciding whether or not to reveal myself, another nurse exposed me. I awkwardly step out. The 2 nurses who discussed me start to blush. Their faces became redder than the bow on Valentine's Day chocolates.
"I'm waiting to go home." I pretend that I didn't hear anything."Dr. Shu, you must have gotten too involved in your work. It's already past time to go home. See you tomorrow. Happy Valentine's Day!" She waves goodbye.
"Happy Valentine's Day." I wave back and watch the 2 nurses hurry away.
That's fine. I was ready to go home anyway. Even though no lover is waitingfor me, at least there's a lazy cat waiting for me to feed.
After I come home, the first thing I do is feed the cat. I forgot when I first had the cat. Probably since last year's Valentine's Day. At that time, I was like an abandoned cat, with eyes filled with despair. Cats don't cry, I do. That's the only difference.
"Better drink all the milk or I'll skin you." I threatened the cat. Her name is Christine, my least favorite English name. I don't know why I named the cat Christine. Christine meowed once to let me know she heard me, but her eyes are complaining about my severity. Her eyes remind me of someone I used to know, standing in front of me with eyes of rebellions.
An year ago today, I had lunch with my boyfriend and took the opportunity to complain to him.
"Today is Valentine's Day. Why didn't you give me any flowers?"
He raised his eyebrow. "Why should I give you flowers? You are not my anyone."
"Then... you should at least give me a card!" I pouted my lips, hurt by his tone.
"I know, I know. After lunch, I'll send you an e-card."
E-card. That sounds so impersonal, but that's the way he is. "You have to e-mail it to me. I'll be waiting." I excitedly smiled and planned to sneak home after lunch to check e-mail. Even though he wouldn't use any romantic words, I still looked forward to the card.
"I can't stand you women. Why do you make such a big deal out of Valentine's Day??" He grumbled while eating his food. His comment induced me to fight with him again.
"You are not romantic at all!! Don't you watch any Japanese drama?"
"Japanese drama? I only watch Discovery Channel."
"Your life is so boring." I made a face at him. "One recent drama was really good. You should have watched it."
"What's that drama called?" He didn't believe in the love portrayed in TV and movies. He always thought they were lies.
"It's called 'Story of A Century'." I gladly answered.
"What kind of trashy plot did it have?"
"What do you mean trash?? Show some respect!" I was so angry. "That drama was very touching, and the theme song was beautiful as well. It's called 'Only Love', performed by Nana Mouskouri." I wonder if he knew who Nana was.
"Nana, I know her. A Greek singer with really expensive albums."
"Her voice is worth it." Even though I secretly agreed with him, I couldn't bring myself to admit it.
"Whatever." He glanced at his watch. "I'll give you 5 minutes to tell me the plot. After that, I'm leaving."
I tried hard to explain 6 hours worth of story in just 5 minutes. The drama portrayed the love stories of 3 generations of women spanning 100 years, from 1901 to 2000. Each generation was portrayed by the same actress. The story was tear-jerking.
"What's so touching about it?" He asked, after listening to the story.
"Don't you think each generation's story is wonderful? If I have such great screen writing ability, I wouldn't be a doctor anymore. I would become a screenwriter."
"If you become a screenwriter, I bet no one would watch the show. The TV station can go out of business." He quickly interjected.
"I'm going back to work. Hurry and send me the card!" I was so mad that I went home immediately, not even finishing my coffee.
As soon as I walked in my door, I turned on my computer and go online.
Staring at the empty in-box, I began to reminisce about how we met. Maybe no one will believe me, but my boyfriend and I were actually neighbors. Our homes were only 1 wall away. Ever since we were kids, we liked to fight with each other all day long. I still remember when I moved to the country that year. Used to the city life, I couldn't get used to the simple life in the country. After school, I would just go home and do nothing. Whenever that happened, he would always come over to tease me.

2008-10-04T17:20:00.014+08:00

my third post for today ! look :

iloveyou and i mean it :D

hey ! i really love you !

special note :

you're the light of my life . thanks to AMANDA JIEE , EMILY JIEE/BABYYY , SZEMIN DARLING , JELENE DARLING , dumbdumb (: , AHJIEE , SHUYI AHMEI and DILYS MEIMEI . although we may have ups and downs with each other , but i still love you loads peeps . you people are my great listeners :D without you people , i believe , i wun be here today -.- haha . i'll remind 'yall , i will always be there for you people . thanks LOOOOOOADS ♥

p/s :

god , thankyou toos :}

mickey ! cute right ? i draw de leh . haha . the end of the post today !

2008-10-04T17:09:00.003+08:00

okay ! here's my second post ! this is my hair . damn nice right ?! i dyed it GREEN leh . LOL xD okokayys , it is called spray -.- well .. today lah , i'm still schooling so cannot use the real dye . so RAWR . hmmm , alrights . will just have to wait .. wait die me sia .. deng si wo x.x

look ! ta daa !!

my guy account the character leh ! so damn SHUAI CANS ? all the girls in audition are like jio-ing me ? LOLLLL . but too bad .. i'm a girl >< i havent use my main account ( girl ) for a long time le . but this account is my level 6 account . so i fake noob lo . and i mia-ed audition for a long time . LOL . since my EOYs are FINISHED , i will be able to play audition again ! haha ><

2008-10-04T17:00:00.007+08:00

HELLOOS ! sorry , i didnt post any posts on 3o september :x too lazy to . haha . lets start of the post with this happy smiley face ! haha . this smiley face pouch is lingyi's one . she is always as smiley as it . and the name is mr smiley . LOL . okokayys . cute people huh . so smile everyone and jiayous for all the exams that some of the reader of this blog has . :D

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a slice of WATERMELON ! whoo~

okayys -.- being lame huh . this picture was taken during art lesson .. haha . sponge ... but really look like watermelon mah . bleh =p since i didnt post stuffs for so long , i should post more ! LOL xD i will have three posts for today ! read die you :x du si ni .. LALALAS~ :]

2008-09-24T18:58:00.003+08:00

okokayys . dunno why , but i just wana update my blog though i'm busy again . aiyah , the next post shall be 3o september . wahahahaha .

PART 2 - the hardest thing .

I left New York feeling that I did the right thing. Before I left on the flight, he came running out of nowhere and said his good-byes and how he was very happy to see me. I came home and just tried to forget about what went on in New York. I had to go on with my life. As the years went on, we wrote to each other on what was going on and how he had missed talking to me. On one occasion he never wrote back to me at all. I was getting worried as to why he hadn't written anything for a long time after I had already written 6 letters to him. Well, just when everything seemed hopeless and sad in my life, I got a note that said: "meet me at the fence where we used to talk about things". I went and saw him there. I was happy to see him, but he was broken-hearted and sad inside. We hugged until we couldn't breathe anymore.
Then he told me about the divorce and why he hadn't written for a long time. He cried until he couldn't cry anymore. Finally, we went back to the house and talked and laughed about what I had been going and to catch up on old times. But in all of this, I couldn't tell him how I felt about him. In the days that followed, he had fun and forgot about all his problem and his divorce. I fell in love again with him. When it came time for him to leave back to New York, I went to see him off and cried. I hated to see him leave. He promised to see me every time he could get a vacation. I couldn't wait for him to come so I could be with him. We would always have fun when we were together.
One day he didn't show up like he said he would. I figured that he might have been busy. The days turned into months and I just forgot about it. Then I got a call one day from a lawyer in New York. The lawyer said that he had died in a car accident going to the airport. And that it took this long till everything was settled. It broke my heart. I was shocked about what took place. Now I knew why he didn't come that day. Again, I was broken-hearted. I cried that night, cried tears of sadness and heartache. Asking questions why did this happen to a kind guy like him?
I gathered my things and went to New York for the reading of his will. Of course, things were given to his family and his ex-wife. I finally got to meet her since the last time we met at the wedding. She explained to me how he was and how he always provided. But he was always unhappy. She would always try everything but she couldn't get him happy, as he was that night at their wedding. When the will was read, the one thing that was given to me was a diary. It was a diary that of his life. I cried as it was given to me. I didn't know what to think. Why was this given to me? I took it and flew back to California. As I flew on the plane I remembered the good times that we had together. I started reading the diary and what was written.
The diary was started with the day we first met. I read on till I started to cry. The diary told of him saying that he had fallen in love with me that day I was broken-hearted. But he was too afraid to tell me what he had felt. That is why he was so quiet and liked to listen to me. It told of how he wanted to tell me so many times, but was too afraid to say anything. It told of when he went to New York and fell in love with another. How the happiest time he had was seeing me and dancing with me at the wedding. He said he imagined it was our wedding. How he was always unhappy till he had no choice but to divorce his wife. How the best time in his life was to read the letters written to him by me. Finally, the diary ended when it said, "today I will tell her I love her". It was the day he was killed. The day I was going to finally find out what was really in his heart.

If you love someone, don't wait till tomorrow to tell him/her. Maybe that next day will never come at all.

2008-09-19T19:07:00.003+08:00

living things that are on earth looking at this blog now , SORRY ! EOYs are coming le . RAWR , seriously no time to update . other time perhaps ? 3oth of september then i update bahhs . DUI BU QI ! D:

but you all can kill time by reading this :

PART 1 - the hardest thing .

It all started when I was 6 years old. While I was playing outside on my farm in California, I met a boy. He was an average kind of boy who teased you and then you chased them and beat them up. After that first meeting in which I beat him up we kept on meeting and beating each other up at the fence. That only lasted for a little while though. We would meet at the fence all the time and we were always together.
I would tell him all my secrets. He was very quiet he would just listen to what I had to say. I found him easy to talk to and I could talk to him about everything. In school we had separate friends but when we got home we would always talk about what happened in school. One day I said to him that a guy I liked hurt me and broke my heart. He just comforted me and said everything would be okay. He gave me words of encouragement and helped me get over him. I was happy and thought of him as a real friend. But I knew that there was something else about him that I liked. I thought of it that night and figured it was just a friend kinda thing that I was feeling.
All through high school and even through graduation we're always together and of course I thought of it as being friends. But I knew deep inside that I really felt differently. On graduation night even though we had different dates to the prom I wanted to be with him. That night after everybody went home I went to his house and wanted to tell him that I wanted to see him. Well, that night was my big chance and all I did was just sit there with him watching the stars and talking about what I was going to do and what he was going to do. I looked into his eyes and listened to him talk about what his dream was. How he wanted to get married and settle down. He said how he wanted to be rich and successful. All I could do was to tell him my dream and cuddle next to him.
I went home hurting because I didn't tell him how I was feeling. I wanted to tell him so bad that I loved him but I was too scared and frightened. I let my feelings go and told myself that someday I would tell him just how I felt. All through college I wanted to tell him but he always had someone with him. After graduation he got a job in New York, I was happy for him but at the same time I was sad to see him go. I was sad also because I didn't tell him how I felt. But I couldn't let him know now that he was leaving for his big job. So I just kept it to myself and watched him go on the plane. I cried as I hugged him for what I felt was going to be the last time. I went home that night and cried my eyes out. I felt hurt that I didn't tell him what I had inside my heart.
Well, I got a job as a secretary and then worked my way to a computer analyst. I was proud of what I had accomplished. One day I got a letter with an invitation to a marriage. It was from him, I was happy and sad at the same time. Now I know that I could never be with him and that we could only be friends. I went to the wedding the next month. It was a big occasion. The big church wedding and the reception at the hotel. I met the bride and of course him. I fell in love one more time. But I held back so it wouldn't spoil what should be the happiest day in his life. I tried to have fun that night but it was killing me inside watching him being so happy and me trying to be happy covering up my sadness tears inside of me.

2008-09-18T11:12:00.000+08:00

SORRY PEOPLE FOR THE LONG-TIME-NEVER-UPDATE blog . heh , will update tomorrow de :x okokayys , takecare peeps ! smiles ^^

2008-09-09T19:00:00.014+08:00

a suey and terrible day sia .. today , i was playing netball with my friends , then *BANGS* ahhhhh ! i got a baluku that is blue black on my forehead seh ! omfg lahs . *ouch*, if only there is someone there who cares and sayang me . LOL , alrights . have to control .. *inhales* & *exhales* hmmm .. on the way back , i took a bus . and i saw a girl , her back was facing me . i thought she was some 15 years old girl ..

are you able to guess what is her age ? o.o

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LOL . you all confirm will also think the same way as me right ? but guess what .. when she turned around .. she is aged like around 4o ! you know ? omfg , difficult to believe right ? okay , maybe i seemed crazy but her style like age 15 those kind ? but she has a son too ! sitting beside her .. hmmm , okay suaku kia ><

got this from an email =/ hahas . ( please squint your eyes :x )

silent love ..

From the very Begining, the girl's family objected strongly on her dating this guy. Saying that it has got to do with family background & that the girl will have to suffer for the rest of her life if she were to be with him.
Due to family's pressure, the couple quarrel very often. Though the girl love the guy deeply, but she always ask him: "How deep is your love for me?"
As the guy is not good with his words, this often cause the girl to be very upset. With that & the family's pressure, the girl often vent her anger on him. As for him, he only endure it in silence.
After a couple of years, the guy finally graduated & decided to further his studies in overseas. Before leaving, he proposed to the girl: "I'm not very good with words. But all I know is that I love you. If you allow me, I will take care of you for the rest of my life. As for your family, I'll try my best to talk them round. Will you marry me?"
The girl agreed, & with the guy's determination, the family finally gave in & agreed to let them get married. So before he leave, they got engaged.
The girl went out to the working society, whereas the guy was overseas, continuing his studies. They sent their love through emails & phone calls. Though it's hard, but both never thought of giving up.
One day, while the girl was on her way to work, she was knocked down by a car that lost control. When she woke up, she saw her parents beside her bed. She realised that she was badly injured. Seeing her mum crying, she wanted to comfort her. But she realized that all that could come out of her mouth was just a sigh. She has lost her voice......
The doctors says that the impact on her brain has caused her to lose her voice. Listening to her parents' comfort, but with nothing coming out from her, she broke down.
During the stay in hospital, besides silence cry,.....it's still just silence cry that companied her. Upon reaching home, everything seems to be the same. Except for the ringing tone of the phone. Which pierced into her heart everytime it rang. She does not wish to let the guy know. & not wanting to be a burden to him, she wrote a letter to him saying that she does not wish to wait any longer.
With that, she sent the ring back to him. In return, the guy sent millions & millions of reply, and countless of phonecalls,.. all the girl could do, besides crying, is still crying....
The parents decided to move away, hoping that she could eventually forget everything & be happy.
With a new environment, the girl learn sign language & started a new life. Telling herself everyday that she must forget the guy. One day, her friend came & told her that he's back. She asked her friend not to let him know what happened to her. Since then, there wasn't anymore news of him.

A year has passed & her friend came with an envelope, containing an invitation card for the guy's wedding. The girl was shattered. When she open the letter, she saw her name in it instead.
When she was about to ask her friend what's going on, she saw the guy standing in front of her. He used sign language telling her "I've spent a year's time to learn sign language. Just to let you know that I've not forgotten our promise. Let me have the chance to be your voice. I Love You. With that, he slipped the ring back into her finger. The girl finally smiled.

2008-09-08T18:01:00.005+08:00

RAWR . school reopen liao ! ahhhh . alrights . teacher wants us to piapiapia for EOYs . omfg , i'm really going crazy liao x.x stress ah ! why ? because EOYs starting on 22 september o8 leh ! it's like only a week after next lahs ? GAHHS D: nevermind , since lantern festival is coming , i shall enjoy myself first . play fire with my friends . oops :x FIRE ? heh , yupps , i play with my friends at 8pm plus like every single year without fail ? o.o show ya some pictures , to make me feel better . LOL , but rather stress because i might over-play then studies everything forget le . D:

okayokay , i seriously LOVE basketball ! muacks <3
feel like playing later . heh . *wonders* why
girls dun play basketball ? o.o

oh yeah , baby . i LOVE mahjong too .

but i can only play during CNY lah . bullshit -.-

cry , alrights D': ?

A girl was sitting on a chair at the gas station she worked at. She looked up and saw her boyfriend walk in. As he was looking at snacks, a man walked in and pointed a gun at her. He had been admiring her ring her boyfriend had given to her as a token of his love. When he asked her to give it to him, she said no. Her boyfriend looked up just in time to see her shot. He ran over to the killer and beat him over the head with a hammer that was for sale. Then he ran and called 911. When the ambulance came, he was sobbing uncontrollably near his girlfriend.
The doctor came over and felt for her pulse. Then he stood up and said she was still alive. Later at the hospital, as he was sitting beside her, he asked"Why didn't you just give him the ring?" and then she softly spoke"Because when you gave it to me, you said it was part of your love for me and I knew if I gave him the ring, I would lose that love." The next day, she was pronounced dead.

2008-09-06T22:05:00.004+08:00

okayokay . i'm updating the second time in one day -.- cause i'm afraid that tomorrow i wun be going online le . alrights . just now during volleyball was DAMN EXTREMELY farn man . dunno why , but i was damn noisy just now . LOL . PLUS , i laugh until pek sia . hmmmm , after the whole 'lesson' end , we rested .. then we started throwing EYES .. ermerm .. i meant ICE at each other , even to our coach lahs ! and we played together . HAHA . the BEST 'lesson' i had so far .. LALALAS~

awww :

Girl: Do you really love me?
Boy: Of course I do.
Girl: I wanna hear you say it.
Boy: I don’t have to.
Girl: Why not?
Boy: Because...
Girl: I just want to hear you say it in words.
Boy: I can’t...
The girl started to cry softly and said:Then you don't love me...The two continued to walk in silence. Theyreached the girls home.
Girl: Why?
Boy: Do you really want to know?
Girl: (hesitantly) Yes.
He hugged her gently, kissed the tip of her noseand whispered in her ear,"Because three words are not enough..."

smiles :)

A girl quickly punches a number into her phone and waits until she hears the other line pick up.

“Becky, I don’t know what to do, I really don’t. I love him so much and I don’t think he thinks of me that way. I mean, whenever I see him or think of him, I can’t help it, this smile comes across my face. Sometimes he sees me smiling and smiles back. That’s when my knees turn to jello and I get butterflies in my stomach. I know you think that he’s is so totally adorable and cute, but if you look past that and actually listen to what he has to say, you find a totally different person. He’s so caring and considerate and he makes me feel like I don’t deserve him. Well, actually, I don’t deserve him. He’s too perfect, I mean, look at all the girls that fall over for him. I could never be one of those. Their all so pretty and bubbly and….. not me. I couldn’t even start to compare myself to them. But whenever I think of him or see him, I can’t help it, I smile. Now I didn’t tell you this but he called me the other day about homework. I tell you now, I made a complete fool of myself. I’m so embarrassed. I stuttered the whole time, but he was so sweet and just kept talking and making me feel better. He’s so perfect Becky, I don’t deserve him, so why do I keep wishing and praying that he will notice me, why?............Becky? Becky are you there?”

“This isn’t Becky.”

Petrified the girl asks, “Then who is this?”

“ This is the guy who’s smile turns your knees to jello and I just wanted to say one thing. Everything you just said now, I’ve been wanting to say since the day I met you.”

2008-09-06T13:01:00.004+08:00

HELLOOS ! sorry to those peeps who keep coming into my blog just to see my posts . and yet i didnt update . yeah , i'm damn lazy though .. lives getting seriously TERRIBLE . well , all thanks to szemin , darling . hahs , i tried getting over it . i drank carlsberg and henike and tiger beer . until i got drunk -.- my face was as RED as a PIG . okayokay , i still burst out laughing for no reason .. but darling helped me cooled down , somehow . hmmm , and she , a playful girl , keep taking my unglams . RAWR ~ i was all along using the phone , and there she goes .. taking and taking and taking .. D: these pictures were from 5 september 2oo8 .

messaging ...

and messaging ...

messaging and talking and she just *snaps*

i tried blocking myself but to no avail ==

tried blocking again ...

okokayys . seriously , darling's damn cute .

finally .

okayys read this :

Billy loved Katie with all his heart. But he never told a Single soul. Katie secretly loved him too. But she thought she would never have a chance with him. Billy asked his friends what they think of her and his friends thought she was gay. They didn't like her at all. So Billy just went along with them. They all made fun of her and made her feel really bad. Katie was so upset.
One day they followed her home from school making fun of her the whole way home. Once she got inside her house she dropped to the floor cringe. She had a crush on Billy since 3rd grade. She didn't know what to do. When Billy got home he felt real bad about what he had done. So he decided to go to Katie's house to tell her he was sorry and that he really loves her.
When he got there he knocked on the door no one answered.
The door was open so he walked in. He walked into the living room and found Katie lying dead on the floor. She had slit her wrists. Billy was so up set . He knew it was his fault she killed her self. And now he could never tell her how he really felt.
The lesson of this story is: Don't wait to until the last minute to tell someone how you really feel. Because it just might be too late. And don't always go by what your friends say, follow your heart.

2008-08-18T20:54:00.001+08:00

HELLOOS peeps who are able to read my blog ! i am FINALLY back to blogging again ! hahas , sorry for the loooooooooooooong time of waiting . okay , emo-ed from monday . eh , the date and today is WED , 2oAUGUST2oo8 not MON , 18AUGUST2oo8 . hehs . check this out :

Before Marriage :

Husband: Ah ! At last, i can hardly wait.
Wife: Do you want me to leave ?
Husband: NO ! Don't you even think about it.
Wife: Do you love me ?
Husband: Of course ! Always have and always will !
Wife: Have you cheated on me ?
Husband: NO! Why are you even asking ?
Wife: Will you kiss me ?
Husband: Every chance I get !
Wife: Will you hit me ?
Husband: Hell no ! Are you crazy ?
Wife: Can I trust you ?
Husband: Yes
Wife: Darling .

After Marriage :
Read from the bottom up .